I have stollen something and I need to get it off my chest.
I have swiped the idea to tell you a bit about me. I recently read an inspiring post on Lisa’s blog where she gave us some insight into who she really is. Then there was Kelly’s post on 10 random facts about her. I’m giving credit where credit is due so maybe I can give myself a break on the thief part 🙂
I have to say how moved I really was by Lisa’s post. I’m not a very open person. My husband has called me stoic more than once. I cry easily about little things, but the big, hard stuff is held close to the vest. One of Lisa’s “if you really knew me” was
” If you really knew me then you’d know that I don’t open up to many people. Only a select few get to know the real me.”
That’s me. To a T. I talk all day long and have superficial conversations with acquantances all day long. I am always happy to give my opinion (often almost compelled) and as I said before, I talk A LOT. When it comes to political views or opinions on health and nutrition and the hell-in-a-handbasket situation that it is in this country today, I am open and honest almost to a fault. When it comes to me, however, those emotions, thoughts, fears, and hopes that live in me day in and day out, I’m very private. It’s me. Not a bad thing. Just me. But I think I’ll try on this openness and see how it fits. I’m not gonna go crazy now, but here it goes.
If You Really Knew Me, You’d Know:
- I sucked my thumb until the 4th grade.
- The first thing I do every morning is brush my teeth. Straight from the bed to the sink. It comes before my workout, breakfast, coffee, ANYTHING else.
- Losing my Poppy (grandfather) was the first true grief I ever felt. My grief manifested itself physically and I threw up every morning for almost 6 months. I went through many tests and procedures to figure out what was wrong with me until my Marty (grandmother) figured it out and we had a sit down.
- My family is Scottish and I have a thing for the bagpipes. Amazing Grace on the bagpipes makes me cry EVERY time and I had bagpipes play as I walked down the aisle at my wedding and as our recessional. I also wore a scrap of my maiden name’s family tartan (plaid) on the train of my dress.
- I watch General Hospital. I have since I was in elementary school when I watched it with my mom and I still DVR it everyday. It’s my guilty pleasure.
- When I was growing up, my answer to the “What do you want to be when you grow up?” was the typical little girl response of “a mommy”. It holds true to this day. I am a feminist, liberal, strong, independent woman, but all I’ve ever really wanted was to be barefoot and in the kitchen.
- I like to be barefoot. I have a shoe fetish, but prefer to be barefoot when at all appropriate. I hate socks, too, and only wear them when exercising.
- My biggest fear is losing my mother. She is my best friend. The only one who has known me since the moment I was born. I believe her when she says she loves everything about me.
- I appear to be a confident extrovert, but have social anxiety. I don’t like large crowds and always prefer to be in small groups with people I know. I fake it well, though.
- I don’t believe in plastic surgery in principle. I believe women should love and appreciate themselves and their uniqueness. However, I would get a boob job in a heartbeat. The cost and recovery time-off is all that has kept me from it so far. That is my major body insecurity.
- I can now admit that I am actually happy with my body. Even with my itty bitties.
- I pierced my bellybutton twice. Once on my senior trip after high school. I kept it only for the summer before removing it. I pierced it again (a second hole since they didn’t want to go through the old scar tissue) in college only to take it out a few months later. Good thing I never got a tattoo. Clearly permanent would have been an issue.
- My husband and I talked about marriage after only 4 months of dating when we went to Vegas with friends. When we got back we convinced several people we got hitched while we were there. It was pretty funny, but took 5 more years to come true.
- My husband and I never lived in the same town until after we were engaged (almost 5 years after we met). We were 2 hours apart for the first 2.5 years and then 2.5 years with him living in the Caribbean and me in Austin. We moved to the same town and into the same house 4 months before our wedding.
- My most memorable life moments so far are wedding related. The first was the feeling of Jensen’s heart beat against my knees as he knelt in front of me to propose. I was sitting and he dropped down, chest pressed against my legs and I will never forget thinking “wow, his heart is pounding.” Still makes me smile. The second is the way I felt the minute the doors opened on our wedding day and I saw Jensen there at the end of the aisle with his classic grin. I felt beautiful and special on my father’s arm and blessed to be marrying that man. I still feel that way.
- My biggest accomplishment so far is finishing a marathon. My brother and dad split it, each doing half with me, as support and it was very special.
- I don’t like papaya. Actually, I despise papaya. It smells AWEFUL! I also don’t like melons (watermelon, cantaloupe, or honeydew). I call them filler fruits because they are the cheap fruits that fill most fruit bowls. You’re lucky to get a grape or heaven forbid a berry of some sort in one of those things.
- I’m a burrower when I sleep. Even in the middle of summer, I want a big cozy comforter. I’d rather turn the air way down and snuggle in the bed than sleep with just a sheet. That being said, I’m a hot sleeper. I often have night sweats and I don’t like to cuddle once it’s time to actually sleep. I need space.
- I like my feet. Each callous and rough patch is there for a reason. HARD FREAKIN WORK! I’m proud of every one.
- I care what my running shoes look like. I know that comfort and performance are more important and I rely on those when choosing shoes, but I am happier with the choice if I like the color.
- My favorite book ever is the Red Tent. Not sure why, but I have read it 4 or 5 times.
- I have an all paths to God sorta view of religion. I am a Christian and believe whole heartedly in the things I was taught growing up and plan to raise my children with those teachings. However, I believe if I had been born in another family of another religion, I would have believed whole-heartedly in those teachings. I believe in believing in something, but maybe we just all call that something a different name. I clearly don’t have the answers.
- My biggest pet peeve is intolerance, judgement, racism, sexism, prejudice, stereotypes. If it doesn’t directly affect your life, why do you care what others are doing? Is it so bad if people are different from you? That being said I suffer from ageism from time to time with elderly drivers and our nosey little old lady neighbors.
- I truly wish I could paint or sing or have some other really cool talent. I always struggle when the “tell us something interesting about yourself” team building, get-to-know-you game comes up.
- I wish I had a career as a yoga instructor, nutritionist, or some other health and fitness field. It’s a dream. You’d also know I’m not a risk taker and though I am not passionate about my job and would love to do something else, I am comfortable in it and am quite frankly good at it.
- I’m an extreme creature of habit in almost all areas except my hair. I color it and change the style often and get antsy if its the same way for too long. I don’t even know what my real hair color is anymore.
- I love my husband more than I ever thought was possible to love someone not blood related to me. I feel very lucky. I often say I don’t NEED my husband, which some people think sounds harsh. But I don’t need him, I want him. I choose him. To me that is a bigger compliment. My life would not be the same without him. I don’t just need someone, I want him specifically.
Ok, thats’ enough for now. Any questions? 🙂 Tell me about you.